I began writing a book in
1982. I am now writing again.
With this "Bipolar/ADD mind" of
mine it is a challenge! But I
don't care if I never get it
done, I am so happy I am writing
again. I did put the book
together in a large binder. That
is a major achievement for me.
There are days that I look back
over the last one to three days
and it seems I floated through
them. I do get tired when I have
a string of mania days. I was
mania most of my life now that I
look back on it but without the
drops. The drops are painful I
think because I try to analyze
them too much. But I have to
remind myself even as I write
this that the drops usually come
when I miss my medication. In a
perfect world they would make it
easier to get the medications.
There are such tight
restrictions on Concerta for
example that I have to drive all
the way to my doctor's office to
get a new prescription every 30
days. This should be easy, but
for me it is not very easy. My
daughter is allowed to pick it
up, but sometimes I forget to
give her & my doc enough notice.
If not for the researchers, the doctors & the trials I
would have no hope. I am able to live a good life again
because I have fought hard to keep my mind and I seek out
good psychiatrists to help me. I am fortunate because I have
a family doctor who insists I go to my shrink for my
psychiatrist medications. It is not easy. It is very hard
battle but it is a fight worth fighting.